Honest Blessings Straight From God

Grandma It Is…

Boy was I ever caught off guard!!!

Sorry I haven’t posted In a few days guys!! Here I am guys!! I’m still not functioning 100% all the way yet, but I’ll get there.

So everyone, it’s official. A grandma I shall be. I need to stop moping and crying about it and get happy and excited for her and the baby that’s coming. The only reason I was feeling a little depressed over the entire situation to begin with is my daughter’s mental health issues. Other than that I’m totally fine. Her dad is happy as well. Even a little more so than me. When I blog tomorrow you’ll know why. So I’m going to keep you in suspense until tomorrow…

This is the wonderful, most beautiful daughter of mine that is going to make me turn into one proud grandma!!!

WOW!! I can’t believe I’ve even come so far as to say that. She’ll be 18 in just a few months though guys so at least she didn’t decide to catch baby fever when she was 13-15 yrs old instead. My Baby would most definitely would be having a baby. I have been talking more about it. Even smiling more about it. I swore I was never gonna recover from the shock of it. Just replaying that day over and over again in my head like a movie reel since the day she told me. Which by the way was the 5th of June.

I called off the next day from work. I barely slept a wink all that night I’ll bet. It felt as though no sooner than I laid my head down on my pillow to sleep then it was already time to get up for work. There wasn’t anyway in hell I would have been productive at work that day. I’d have just been in everyone’s way honestly. When you feel so upset, happy, scared, excited, just every feeling you could think of, is what I felt swirling around in my brain, which was putting out signals to my body that I was physically sick. It was weighing me down man, just like that. I don’t remember a time when I have ever let something bother me so badly that it effected me physically, when I knew damn well I wasn’t physically sick. Just a mental jumbo ball of nerves. Frayed and spooled out everywhere. But today was the day I guess I came to terms with it. I been smiling and joking around all day. I’ve got the upcoming 4 days off and I’m gonna enjoy it. So with that I bid you all farewell for the night. Say your prayers (if that’s your thing) sweet dreams and night night.

By tallgirl07

I have always loved expressing myself through words. I have been a bookworm since I started reading I think. So expressing myself through writing has forever been super easy for me. Now if I could just teach everyone who didn't know how, how to read, then they'd be able to read all the fascinating literature out there. I'd go crazy if I couldn't curl up to a good book on a rainy day if I wanted to. I work with the public. So I was outside a couple days ago typing away on my 2nd hand chrome book, and a nice gentleman started conversation about how long it took to charge. I said not long for an older model. He said he knew, about the older model I was working with. I proceeded to tell him I was trying my hand at writing a book. He turned out to be an avid bookworm himself. He gave me nothing but encouragement to finish the book. I like to tell myself I can do anything. But we all know how some people should just stick to their profession, well I'm gonna keep trying. I won't stop until I know without a shadow of doubt I can't succeed. Then maybe I'll put my pencil down, or in my case now, close my chrome book for good. Something tells me I won't have to just yet though.

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