Hey all. Sorry I haven’t posted the last wkm or so. It’s been tenacious to say the least. But I have been hanging in there. It jus seems like the better I try to be, the worse off I am. It seems my mind is wondering about so many things. I have been easily distracted, lose my focus on things that need to be done, Something happens at work. Which is exactly what has happened to mer in the past couple weeks. Ooh, I was so mf mad, but I didn’t disrespect anyone, or call them out their name. See I just now stopped writing and got lost inside my head thinking about this and a shit ton of othedr things! What’s wrong with me you guys? I’m so serious. I haven’t had my medicastion in months. I suffer also from ADD. An OMG!!!! It sucks so bad.
Back to what I was sayin about work. It feels like I have wrotre this already…(packing a bowl real quick. Sorry but it calms me down enough to focvuis on things that need to be done.) (now on the phone through messenger with my cousin. Her momma, my momma’s twin sister. She passed away from having a heart attack, while my mother was burying their brother, and laying him to rest. I know right!) Okay, I’m back. That call was so compliceted, it wasn’t funny at all. I just fiund out that my Aunt set it up to have her own son shot. That is what she was telling me about right before she introduced me to my Aunt’s son, my other cousin, and he was telling me the exact same thing.
During the conversation with my cousin, we woke, and I say we because we’re so loud together, my husnband up. He came in here and had his rbf going on. I turned around and said I was sorry. I had just founf out some messed up shit. He just shook his head and walked out.
I’m tired now. I’ll be back. Please keep me in your prayers
Good morning to everyone. I recieved a few comments and I want to say thank you to “ashok”. Thank you for not only your prayers but your comments. It has inspired me to keep writing the things I need prayer and advice on. My life is so mf hectic. Probably could tell that from this post last night. When my cousin called me on messneger I found out some very troubling information. If you read the last part of my post about my cousin getting shot. Yes. His own mother set that shit up!!! I was at a loss for words frfr. How could a mother do that to their own child? I was locked up with mothers that have done way worse things to their children than setting them up to be shot. Sick, twisted, horrific type stuff. I don’t think I’ll ever understand.
Well while she and I were talking about it, we were talking loud. We woke up my husband. Well I guess I did cause I turned down the volume on my phone. I had to she’s justy asloud as me if not even louder and that’s pretty damn loud. I just couldn’t believe my own Aunt had her own son set up to be shot. I’m truly at a loss for words on that. So I’m going to close this now, update, and repost it. I hope everyone has a blessed day.