When I got off work yesterday and I got in the truck, my husband started off by telling me he’s paying this “little girl” to clean our house. Since my daughter was in the truck that’s automatically the “little girl” he was referring to. I was all kinds of confused. I was also already in a sour freaking mood because, well…ladies know what I’m saying without having to say it. He says to “NO”. That he’s not talking about my daughter. It went all through me and made me even more pissed off than I was. How is he gonna pay a complete stranger to clean our home an walk into our sleeping space, our private space, that we don’t even know!!!? I told him he was the one who was gonna pay her. Then for some reason I asked him, well more like said to him, “I’ll bet you haven’t spent even $100 of your money.” He then proceeds to tell me that he in fact hasn’t and still has all $1,400! That also went all through me. Why? Because he called me a tight wad saying I needed to spend some of my money, when come to find out he’s not spent a single dime of his!! I’m such in a bad mood right now it isn’t funny. Usually writing calms me down. But I just now got to clock out on my 30 min break because an asshole I work with chose to take an hour long break which made me have mine late and that went through me too. Then I call the pharmacy to find out my meds are filled, so I ask my ol man to go get em and he saying he’s busy can I get them when I get off work. Not realizing how much I need them right now due to how pissed off I already am.!!! UGH!!Someone please tell me how to calm myself down!! My mind is 90 to 100 miles an hour right now.
I have always loved expressing myself through words. I have been a bookworm since I started reading I think. So expressing myself through writing has forever been super easy for me. Now if I could just teach everyone who didn't know how, how to read, then they'd be able to read all the fascinating literature out there. I'd go crazy if I couldn't curl up to a good book on a rainy day if I wanted to. I work with the public. So I was outside a couple days ago typing away on my 2nd hand chrome book, and a nice gentleman started conversation about how long it took to charge. I said not long for an older model. He said he knew, about the older model I was working with. I proceeded to tell him I was trying my hand at writing a book. He turned out to be an avid bookworm himself. He gave me nothing but encouragement to finish the book. I like to tell myself I can do anything. But we all know how some people should just stick to their profession, well I'm gonna keep trying. I won't stop until I know without a shadow of doubt I can't succeed. Then maybe I'll put my pencil down, or in my case now, close my chrome book for good. Something tells me I won't have to just yet though.View Archive →